Nigel James Charles Worthington 27.12.1956

" And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. " - Abraham Lincoln

Maties March Against Crime

Last Friday, a few of us took part in the March against crime, it was so great to be a part of something meaningful and important. CLICK HERE to see the video of it:) you may even catch a glimpse of a few of us:) ( jen, luke, kerri and my leg:P)

SQUUUUUUUUUEEEEEEEZE!

Lights will guide you home

and ignite your bones

and I will try to fix you.

done.

give up.

walk away.

it's over.

theories shmearies

I have a very pretty, very wise friend, she shared a theory with me the other night:

"Nothing stops love, death doesn't neither does hate, you can never kill it, you just gotta learn to love that person differently when your circumstances change and they do too."

thanks for getting it, always.

**Tomorrow we say goodbye**

Goodbye to you,

The boy with the golden smile,

Enjoy your time in the sky.

much love.

i want you to get me like THEY do.

"get up, get out, get away from these liars,

Cause they don't get your soul or your fire."

Some people get me, some don't.

some of those that do, i wish they didn't.

others of those that don't, i wish they did.

Flowers in our hair

Spring is when you feel like whistling even with a shoe full of slush. ~Doug Larson

spring time is coming, and personally,I can't wait.

<3

HerE cOMeS tHe SUN

Dear Harriet,

I've starting to feel

We stayed together out of fear

Of dying alone

I've been slipping through the years

My old clothes don't fit like they once did

So they hang like ghosts

Of the people I've been

It's like my heart can't take

My fall in love every day

And I feel like a fool

I have to face the truth

That no one could ever look at me like you do

Like I'm something worth holding on to

These times I think of leaving

But it's something I'll never do

'Cause you can do better than me

But I can't do better than you

~ Death Cab for Cutie

To You, with the heavy heart

I've been there before,
I'll be there again.
I'm right by your side,
till the very end.

I love you

Much Love Mondays

<3 morning tea <3 weet-bix <3 knowing the answer <3 rooiplein lunches <3 people watching <3 The xx <3

I found a new blog, and its beautiful, so i decided to join in on the *much love monday* madness:) check it out at http://muchlove-anna.blogspot.com/

Hope the week is delightful:)

Awake my Soul

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
This weakness I feel I must finally show

Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free
Har har, har har, har har, har har

Awake my soul
Awake my soul

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lives
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
My weakness I feel I must finally show
Har har, har har, har har, har har

In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life
In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life

Awake my soul
Awake my soul
Awake my soul
For you were made to meet your maker
Awake my soul
Awake my soul
Awake my soul
For you were made to meet your maker
And you were made to meet your maker

~mumford & sons

*the Box

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I lonelily landed my wants in [his] hands
In a way I felt you were leaving me
I was sure I wouldn't find you at home
And you let me down
You could have knocked off the evening
But you lonelily let [her] push under your bone
You let me down
It's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone

You're coming home, you're coming home

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so alone
And you let me down
You could've called if you'd needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked in instead
And you let me down
It's one thing being cheated
But you took [her] all the way through your bed

And now you're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
And I'm trying to forget
You're coming home
And I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
And you haven't called yet

You're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
I'm just trying to forget
You're coming home
I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
But you haven't called
You're coming home

You're coming home, you're coming home

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I lonelily loomed [him] into my bone
You let me down
There's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone


~ Lonelily by Damien Rice

miss you

" Till the day we meet again,
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend."

*take my breath away

"...No i don't. Cause in my eyes you're perfect, and i don't want to see you as anything else"

some wise words....

Sometimes, in order to move forward you have to stop looking back. It’s always tempting to stick with what’s safe, what’s comfortable. But love isn’t safe. We can’t trust that it will stay the same. All we can do is hang on... even if we feel vulnerable, naked even. You might never feel ready to move in or move on but you have to because that is how we grow. And growing is what it is all about.


~ Men in Trees

***FEEL IT. It's here***

Here are some of the photo's from the Saints Fan fest, Joburg, on the 11th of June.

What an incredible vibe, not jus here but throughout the country.

I'm so very proud to call myself South African:)

Logistics makes the world go round

...well makes everything go round the world, really.

but to be completely honest:

right now, i couldn't care less about it.

Has the thought of exams made you feel like this....

just to cheer the lot of you up, take a look at this,
50 things to do in an exam that you know you're going to fail anyway...

http://web.mit.edu/voodoo/www/is744/exam.html

come and go

I love this picture to bits.
It kind of relates to things I've been thinking about over the last couple of days.

Don't you think it's incredible how people come into our lives (so easily too) and can either make your life better or a whole lot worse, and then can leave our lives just as easily? Often we don't even have a say in it all, and can't control it, sometimes its indirect, but can affect you just as much. Amazing.

I look at this image and wonder about these people and their lives. I wonder if i were to have ever met them, would they contribute to my happiness or the complete opposite.

Boats and Birds

If you be my star,
I'll be the sky, you can hide underneath me and come out at night.
when i turn jet black and you show off your light.
I live to let you shine.

You can sky rocket away from me,
and never come back if you find another galaxy, far from here, with more room to fly,
just leave me some stardust to remember you by.


Today, I miss you.

Om nom nom

ah yes. the sound of students guzzling down tasty treats.
so after a long, hard week, full of way too much work, Paige and I decided to treat ourselves at the sweetest little cakeshop at the bottom of Dorp street called Mila.

We both had cheesecake, raspberry and kiwi & Lime.
They were so pretty i had to take photos:)

it's fine.

It's fine.
cause it always is.

Just say it simple.
be calm.
smile.

it will all be ok.

wisdom

funny enough, this image was already in my "happiness" folder.
Thanks VG.
Thanks Mommy VG.

Cheaters cheat, and liars lie

I've been on a downward spiral lately, for what reason, i do not know.
Actually i do. I want something that i can't have. I want the familiar. I want comfort.
but as i said, I CAN'T HAVE IT.

IT is a liar and a cheat. and i can't stand it anymore. i cant stand everyone sitting and watching me put myself into situations where i become a lesser version of myself, because I won't be appreciated and adored.

I'm tired. I'm tired not in the sense that i should rather sleep than sit and think about life, but rather tired of trying. I'm tired of giving of all my effort and energy, and not getting any in return. I'm in a place where I have never been surrounded by so many people and felt so alone at the same time.

I know i deserve more. I don't say this cause i'm arrogant, obnoxious nor do i feel that i am superior. I say this because i know the thoughts and feelings i feel now, are not right, and that i shouldn't feel this way, and it sure as hell shouldn't be the result (whether direct or indirect)of what a person i love and who loves me does that makes me feel this way.

i have a theory that when life gets tired and bored it decides to shake things up a bit, turn our lives upside down for a while, so we can find another path to travel or experience things we were meant to but never would have if life had stayed the same. This is an opportunity to find what life has in store for me. I need to thinK of it as life putting me back on the right track to where I were ment to be.
...If only i could give myself advice during these times, and actually listen to it!!

but at the end of it all, it falls back to the saying that once a cheater, always a cheater. and once a liar always a liar.

it doesn't matter if you are one, both or none of those things, just be careful- for the sake of your own heart as well as those around you.

unknown

Fear is a thief of dreams.
i hate knowing that you're there.



with her.

Celebration

Birthdays. such wonderful things:)

Today there are so many people i love dearly turning another year older.

I saw this picture, and it makes me so happy- it makes me remember how another year older excited us so- and now, all we do is try to avoid the entire occasion.

To the ones i love, who are celebrating their birthdays today- i hope its a fantastic one, filled with all the magic and excitement that a birthday is meant to have.

lovely spaces filled with lovely faces

Random photos of photos, post its, charcoal drawings (inspired by Kerri, motivated by how PO the estate agents will be and i feel like i need to include involved- you know; inspired, motivated, involved)and other random things that make this space my place:)

easter egg hunts...i didn't have one :(

so I've been a bit slack with my blogging business in the last week or so. I haven't had too much inspiration or anyone to whine about.
The long weekend was incredibly boring and non-eventful, even easter was ordinary- i bought myself an easter egg (gotta love it)
Monday came along and my friend Georgie dropped in for a visit, and brought me my one and only easter egg duck which was delish:)... until Ess came home from CT- she bought me one too:):):)although her egg had been left in the back of the car and had melted.

i thought georgie's little duck was too sweet and sarah's too funny not to be acknowledged:) hope your weekend was more eventful than mine

Roadtrips

I like them. a lot.
this photo was one from our first night in Durbs on the roadtrip Sim, Jen, George and I took at the beginning of December last year. We had so much fun, and made so many wonderful memories. So much has changed in each of our lives since then, and it feels like things are spinning out of control every so often, and that's when i feel like another one is in order.

My friends are the people who know me, know me in a way like nobody else does, in the way that I'd like everyone to know me. I need some of that time i think, to get me back to a good space.

Holidays aren't too far away, and hopefully time flies and we can get back to making those kick-ass memories. I miss you lot.

Dear Sam,

right back at you ;)

If you love something give it away...

If you walk away I walk away
first tell me which road you will take
I don't want to risk our paths crossing someday
so you walk that way I'll walk this way...

i'll forget the world with you lovely x

simply unbeatable

yes yes, once again, maties are Varsity Cup Champs.
tonight, or well last night, we played against UCT and beat them (again...)
I wasn't able to make it to the game, had a test to write, but thanks to my boys in maroon, my bad day didn't end as terribly as the rest of my day went.
Just a pic to show that i was there in spirit,
well done boytjies

They're not so far away after all...

After yesterdays post, i sent messages to all four of those girls, and got a few responses too- it made me miss them even more-in a good way though.

maybe it was a blend of that, hearing "give me strength"-Snow patrol (beautiful song about friendships) and studying all day that made me feel rather emotional, but sitting here i remembered part of a letter Allanah had given me the day i last saw her (i keep it in my bedside table, for moments when i need her wisdom) and alas i needed some of that wisdom and there it was:

"If you do ever feel really alone, i know I will, Look up at the sky. Yes, I know, corny, but seriously, it helps. We can see the same sky even though we're in different parts of the world. We can see the same stars too I think, it'll help to make it not seem so far away."

I think i might go do some star gazing...

My friends lie over the ocean, my friends lie over the sea

Sarah (now in Perth) and Karline (Studying in Redding)



Rosalind (Studying in Limerick,Ireland), Me (left here...abandoned i like to say) and Allanah (now in Sydney)

These 4 girls are a few of my really great friends.
Throughout last year, one by one they began jetsetting off to new and wonderful places, starting their new and wonderful lives.

I've been shifting through photos from the passed 4/5 years and there isn't one that doesn't involve some silly story involving one of these amazing girls, I miss them terribly and looking back on old photos makes me want to bring them all home and lock them in my flat never to let them leave again.

Everytime varsity gets holidays, everyone that is studying around the country all go back 'home' to Joburg, we have get togethers and go out and have really good times, and everytime we do- these 4 girls are always mentioned and chatted about as if they're all still around and its like we saw them just yesterday. i love it, it makes me feel like they're still here and our friendships are still alive- in fact i know they still are. I think about all of them every single day and love them with all my heart, don't stay away too long girls.

For the Delicate Hearts

The Real Estate Agents

Super evil. I am your enemy.
I hate them.
(not the band)
about 17 of them invaded my flat this afternoon, in the hope that they could find something fantastic for their clients.

My friend Sarah was here with me. she sat awkwardly outside on our filthy balcony (yes we stick everything too dirty to clean there, chunder-buckets, rotten veggies on oven trays etc) while these agents asked her questions in a language she can bearly understand.

They also insisted on helping themselves to the last remaining clean glasses in our house and turning every single light on, using our depleted electricity supply.
Sarah and i were then bombarded with questions about schedules, keeping in mind that sarah actually DOES NOT LIVE HERE and was merely smiling and waving during this entire process (she swore occasionally too). These people seem to think that they are entitled to waltz on in whenever they please and expect Paige and I to be here, as if we have nothing better to do.

one of those FML moments.

Two Birds on a wire

Two birds of a feather
Say that they're always gonna stay together
But one's never going to let go of that wire
He says that he will
But he's just a liar

Two birds on a wire
One tries to fly away and the other
Watches him close from that wire
He says he wants to as well, but he is a liar.

Being alone allows us to grow, and discover things about ourselves.So that when we share ourselves and our lives with others we never lose sight of our true selves.a very wise girl reminded me of this.

Love and all things mushy

As cynical as i am about love and all things mushy, i found these photos- i have them saved in my "happiness" folder on my laptop, cause deep down they melt my heart. I hate to admit it but there are more, just thought 4 pictures was more than enough corny-ness for one day.

Just like little girls and boys
Playing with their little toys
Seems like all they really were doing
Was waiting for love